CHARACTER NAME: Alex Manes AGE: 27 FANDOM NAME: Roswell, New Mexico CANON POINT OR AU: End of Season 1 D&D ALIGNMENT:Lawful Good LINK TO CONTACT POST:Here it Be
CHARACTER TRAITS / PERSONALITY
Alex Manes is brave. Alex Manes is smart. He's quick-witted and intuitive and unafraid. But Alex is also repressed, he's the product of ten years in the military, three of those under DADT and he's the product of growing up in a family where he was shamed for being himself, beaten for being who he was and blamed for the departure of his mother.
He feels things very deeply but doesn't necessarily have the coping mechanisms to handle his emotions, so he pushes them aside and works through them methodically, often needing space from the person or thing that has made him feel out of control so he can sort through how he feels and logically respond. It means that he often thinks before he speaks and has a tendency to tactically retreat when something feels like it's too much for him to handle. This can, to some, look like running away (and they would be right, on some level). He needs time and space in order to think about what he wants to say, everything in his life is carefully controlled and compartmentalised and he doesn't necessarily handle having that taken away from him. He hates being put on the back foot or on the spot because it makes him feel vulnerable and weak, two emotions he hates with a passion.
Though Alex can't be accused of being a social chameleon - as he knows who he is - he's only just recovering his sense of self; he had to blend in for a very long time when he joined the military just to survive and so the rebellious teenager was broken down and moulded into the perfect soldier, applying his intense focus and smarts into something that made him feel good. Having experienced powerlessness from a young age, being in a position where he was able to control things, where he was good at what he did made him feel good. Control is very important for Alex, as he hasn't had any for a long time.
He wants to do the right thing, and though he is stubborn and often of the belief that his way is the best way (and therefore if you're not onboard you're in the way so please step aside and let him just get on with it), he's ruthlessly efficient and a great strategist, utilising all the information at his disposal to create an image of the bigger picture that lets him then make wider decisions and consider the implications of those.
He has a cutting wit and has a decent relationship with sarcasm, though struggles to put his feelings into words. He's fought wars of all kinds for his entire life and tends to view his inter-personal relationships in a similar way; fights to be had, battles to be won, conversations to prepare for carefully and meticulously. He's got a heavy dose of anxiety and both combat and personal history related PTSD that he's working through which has made him more guarded and he takes on a lot of responsibility, preferring to shoulder the guilt and blame for others rather than share it or let them feel like it's their responsibility to fix something. He takes his 'family legacy' very seriously and is very serious about taking it apart.
Alex, having been the subject of a lot of abuse of various forms, is very sensitive to things he perceives as people calling him weak or treating him differently because of his disability or his sexual orientation. It is a hot button that causes him to snap, and he isn't quick to apologise. He doesn't have a strong, confident sense of himself as a gay man and has a need to explore that and allow himself to be who he is without the insidious voice of Jesse Manes and the reminder of getting beaten and punished for being himself. He's also the type to call the people he cares about out for not being good friends, or not pulling their weight. He calls a spade a spade and doesn't beat around the bush. Be honest with him, he'll be honest with you.
Ultimately, in summary, you won't get a more loyal friend than Alex. You just need to be patient with him while he pulls his shit together.